Countdown

The date of my big move is fast approaching. As I reflect on everything that has happened in the past 7 months I continue to stand amazed in the presence of JESUS. Everything continues to fall gently into place, he doesn't need me to worry, he's got it all under control. Sigh, what a peaceful feeling. I first visited the Little Lambs website (http://www.littlelambs-intl.org/) in October, as I read their vision my heart started pounding, it's pretty much stayed that way since. I reflect back on the past few years and see the many many ways in which God was preparing me for this.. for these moments that were to come. I first went to Kenya in January of 2007, I wasn't going to go, a lot of my friends were going and I just thought to myself I'll go next year. It's such short notice blah blah. I could not shake the feeling that I should go to Kenya. I felt I HAD to go to Kenya. So I went. It was a 10 day trip and I haven't been the same since. Missions were now burning on my heart. I came home and had a hard time believing that was it. I had always had an interest but my own fears and insecurities held me back. God was preparing me in many ways, he was drawing me closer to him. Showing me I could do all things in CHRIST who strengthens me. Gently teaching me how to be the woman he created me to be. In February of 2008 my friend Sandy and I hiked Kilimanjaro as well as going back to the mission camp in Kenya. After this trip I knew I that someway somehow I would end up doing mission work. Wasn't sure to what degree where etc. I realize my mission field could be my office! Could be my co-workers at the nursing home. I settled into a routine of sorts. Got comfortable again. Then went to Spain in October where I met several people involved in .... you got it Missions.. Missionaries in Spain, I had never thought of such a thing! Karen and I met Jamie, serving the Lord full time in Barcelona/Tarragona. Just meeting her, talking to her really opened my eyes to all that is out there, to how God will use us when we allow it and are ready. I came home and was once again not comfortable in my comfort zone! There was more for me, then I landed on the LLI site. Went to a meeting and here I am. My first trip to Guatemala took place in November 08. On the plane ride down I was afraid, thinking what if I get there and realize I can't do this! That was not the case. I was blessed to meet many new friends and spend time with old friends. I saw a little bit of Guatemala. The doors were all open, Little Lambs could use me down there in the city, it's an amazing opportunity I'm blessed with. I have had my moments of panic over earthly things, but the beautiful thing is I have never once questioned that God was leading me in this! As I allow him to lead me each step, he's there! Guiding me! :) My trip in March 09 was amazing. It sealed the deal in my heart! I can do this. Being there with the children, keeping it all in perspective does great things for me. It makes me so sad, the thought of leaving my family and friends, my darling nieces and nephews that I have been able to be #1 Auntie to (at least in my opinion hehe), but this is what I need to do! I'm very sure I'll have my moments, the journey will be tough but with God at my side I have no need to fear.

"The Lord is my light and my salvation; whom shall I fear? The Lord is the strength of my life; of whom shall I be afraid?" - Psalm 27:1.