Baby Boy

I think of the life you have lived. In your two short years. I'm confident this is not the life God chose for you. His plan was not for you to suffer so much. You can walk, but your body is limp. If that makes any sense. I am new at this and learning about what could have possibly happened that made you feel so disconnected from your own body. A newborn infant receives his connection to his body and those around him, first from his mother. The positive touch, being held in her arms, being washed by her hands, being bottle or breast fed while cradled in her arms. This did not happen for you. My throat squeezes at the thought. You are beautiful. And when a smile is coaxed out of you it is priceless! You are so smart. During play time, you will suddenly disconnect and lay/fall down. It's as if you haven't realized yet that you are connected to your body. Thats where early stimulation therapy comes in. The goal is to help you connect. We do this through massage, playing games such as peek-a-boo, giving you lots of cuddles and tickles and love. You have mastered pee-a-boo. When I say your name and put my hands over my eyes you start to giggle, and you copy my movements. Another one of your favorites is pat-a-cake, you especially love the rollll it part. You also smile when I say, I want a kiss from…. and say your name… and come towards you, your smile gets bigger and bigger. I pray you receive the Fathers love. I'm confident God has put people in your life that love you like your mom and dad did not or could not. Our Father is that merciful! You were sitting on my lap, and the baby boy in my stomach started to move, so I told you there is a baby in there, you put your hands on my belly and a smile that i have never seen from you lite up your face. You are beautiful. God is using the baby in me, to show you the miracle of life. Today I asked you where is the baby and you pointed to my stomach. You are so aware and know that is something special, i can tell in the tender way you put your hands on my belly. Anyone that has been around a 2 year old knows that you should be a busy little guy, instead if you were allowed to you would sit in one place for hours. I can't wait for the day you start causing mischief. I am praying this for you life, that you will flourish and be ok, that you will receive and give love and become the little boy God created you to me.